I went to ONE support group. It was really nice, really comforting. The women were great; an amazing group of women that have dealt with a shit load in their lives. A lot of them mentioned that they've lost friends, some lost family...others lost their husbands. I'm not talking about death, though in some instances I would be correct, I'm talking about people that are still living that are no longer in their life. Personally, I've already had a handful of people fall off the Amber tree, which is fine - it's what they wanted - I guess we were never friends to begin with. But when it happens to someone you've basically known your whole life...it kinda sucks. O-kay, it REALLY sucks.
Less than two hours ago, I pretty much had to break it off with my best friend...or at least who I thought was my best friend. I feel safe writing about it because I know she hasn't liked my page or probably even read my blog. I hate to admit it, but maybe we weren't friends, either? :( Ohhhh, this makes me SO sad!!! I'm totally crying writing this :(
I am so thankful that I have a strong support group where I really need them to be...my backbone. My husband is always there for me, picking me up when I am down - letting me know that I am always awesome. My parents are great, too. I break down on the phone with them even when I didn't feel a cry coming on. My dad knows what's up, he's been here before. It's nice to be able to ask about things - even though he's an uber-macho-man, but I know deep down he's uber-sensitive (yes, dad - I just wrote that about YOU!) :)
In that one support group, this woman that has indelibly made an impression on me, she said that my vocabulary has changed and only a select few will understand it: (1) People that understand because their vocabulary has changed due to cancer and (2) people that truly love you that are willing to change their vocabulary to understand you.
I guess it makes you shine a light on the situation; what kind of people do you have in your circle? What kind of people do you WANT in your circle? I guess this all just weeded out who would really be there. I am absolutely stoked with the handful that I have. I love you all, and you know who you are :)