So…I haven’t written in a while and realized that’s because everything is peachy. Everything really has been just super and awesome. But, now I have something to write about. It’s not super and it’s definitely not awesome.
Last weekend the hubs and I went over to his mom’s house and she was showing us her xbox Kinects, which I totally want now. It basically SEEs you – it really watches your movements so you get accurate, real time game playing (insert government conspiracy theory here). Anyways, we played ‘Fruit Ninja’ and you use your arms (and also legs like I was trying to do) and judo-chop your way through the game. Seeing that I don’t use my judo chopping abilities on a day-to-day basis, I was SO sore the next day.
The hubs, being the amazing hubs that he is, asked if I wanted a back rub which lately I've been declining these offers because they just don’t feel good anymore over my back because of my scar area. However, with the soreness adding up, I agreed. As he is rubbing my back, he exclaims “Jeez honey, you have a HUGE lump on your back”. He’s rubbing over it and I am able to contort myself enough to feel it, it’s not a knot. It’s a lump. A large lump.
I don’t think really anything of it for the rest of the day, but after getting out of the shower that night I decided to have a peek. I didn't see anything upon the initial review, then I arched my back and gasped when I saw it because I wasn't expecting it to be that large. I took a picture of it this morning and I emailed it to the two doctors that I've seen at Kaiser (general doc & dermatologist). I am getting SUPER antsy.
It's not hard, it doesn't hurt and it's about an inch under the bottom of my scar (on the left side of my body). No clue how long it's been there. Is this common? Yes and no. Yes because it could be a Lipoma, which is just a collection of fatty tissue and totally benign. Although, Melanoma likes to mimic Lipomas...and they can be mimicked close to your primary melanoma (hence my concern). Some people can get a local recurrence because basically that's where the cancer cells know where to go, they've already hung out there before.
Another concern, because it's near my spine, is the last 2 months I've had sciatic pain that I've never had before. Sometimes it's so strong that I have to stop walking and just stand there like a weirdo. Also, my left leg tends to fall asleep more than I can remember it doing before, too. Other than that, I haven't had any other issues with it - except for last night, but that's just because I was aware of it.
Trying not to panic.... Trying to remain calm until Kaiser calls me back. Trying to keep good thoughts. So, since I am trying to keep good thoughts - keep good thoughts for me, yes?