The other day I was thinking how I hadn't written anything in a while. It actually made me feel kind of sad, like I haven't had a lot of random thoughts like I normally do. I suppose it's true, I've really only been focused on getting back on track. Almost like I've been mentally hiding from my 'random thoughts'.
A couple of times when the hubs and I were chatting during the last month he made mention that he had this bad feeling that things would get worse before they would get better. I thought it had something to do with the unemployment...which by the way has not started yet...it's been super. Well, yesterday while doing laundry, I walk back inside our place and notice some of Tony's things with an interesting set of papers on the dining table: Discharge paperwork.
I swiftly walk through our small apartment and I can't find him. I straight up looked in closets thinking that I would find my strong, tall man in a crumbled pile on the floor. I pace for about 30 seconds before I can hear his footsteps coming up to our patio and the look on his face confirms it all. He was let go, too.
Breakdown commences in 3 - 2 - 1....
You all know that I am a firm believer in everything happens for a reason so I am betting it all on black that we're going to win the lottery. I mean, we've got to, right? Wouldn't that be awesome?! Yes, yes it would. I also know that we all learn and grow from life's experiences, but there are times when I just want to scream "What else are you going to throw at us, LIFE?" I definitely don't want to shout "Is that all ya' got!?" I don't want to challenge the universe, that would be a very, very bad idea.
This last year...who am I kidding, the last two years have been pretty stressful. With all of the learning and growing that the hubs and I have been doing, we're going to be so much stronger and smarter than we already are. I am just so unbelievably ready for all of this to be over and put in the past where it belongs...
Oh Buttercup, I'm sorry to hear that, but I'm with you, everything does happen for a reason, it's got to make it's appearance soon.
ReplyDeleteYeah - Mr. Reason better show up real soon! ;)
DeleteWow...yikes...so sorry to hear this. Something good is going to happen and you both will be better for it, I promise!
ReplyDeleteI sure hope. I have great visions of a better life for me and the hubs (melanoma included, of course). I just hope it's sooner than later. Thank you for writing! ;)
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